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8th January 2009

11:53pm: I'm in a show tomorrow!
So I decided to get back into the improv swing of things and I'm doing a show called SketchProv tomorrow night at the ImprovBoston Cabaret. It is at 7:30 @ ImprovBoston in Central Square. $10/$7 for students. It is gonna be an awesome mix of Improv and Sketch comedy, and itd mean the world to me if people came out.


Message me or comment if you need any more info

(Rob me)

25th September 2008

6:00pm: And sometimes when you're on
You're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along
And they love you
But the lows are so extreme
That the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be better
You'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter or son
And a real good friend
And you'll be awake
You'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest
You'll be brave
You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy

(I've been hit by 1 smooth criminal already Rob me)

13th May 2008


Speaks for itself.

(Rob me)

8th May 2008

12:47am: Im so confused at the moment.
I also have the worst luck and timing of anyone I know.

The semester is almost over, and Im doing alot better now then I did last semester which is good. I like not having to worry about dissapointing my parents anymore. My performance at Latin completely strained my relationship with my parents and since ive been at school its been ALOT better. And that really makes things easier.

Still have so much left to do:
Watchmen Movie
Poetic Analysis
Makeup Chem Labs
Chem Final
Final Script
Russian Paper

This next week should be exciting. Then home. Really excited to see everyone.

PS Streetlight Manifesto is STILL the best band Ive ever seen live.

(I've been hit by 3 smooth criminals already Rob me)

29th April 2008

1:49am: All we want to do is eat your brains
I am not going to lie, I didnt see that coming. But I'm not upset. Im actually very touched. So thank you.

I'm done being stupid, and done being down on myself.

I'm decent.

I want to get home.
And wander around taking photos
And inebriate
and lay on the commons(avoiding syringes)
And just enjoy my city.

Now to start my considering..

(Rob me)

20th April 2008

9:11pm: I'm kinda falling apart at the moment. I can't really put how Im feeling into words. I'm just down. Down on myself, down on everything. Somehow I am singlehandedly destroying every relationship that really means something to me.

I feel like I have no friends left at Columbia. And this isnt helping. I feel like all of the people that I've built myself around here, now want very little to do with me. And that theyd carry on their lives perfectly fine without me. And I'm starting to think if I'dve been better off just staying in Boston. I know it isnt true..I just wonder.

I'm sick of feeling this way. Or rather not feeling. I just want to sleep all day, and have someone tell me things are better now.

I'm scaring myself.

(I've been hit by 1 smooth criminal already Rob me)

7th April 2008

11:05pm: I dont know why this song resonates with me so much, but I love it strangely enough.

Why arent I happier?
I dont know.
No use trying to find out

(Rob me)

30th March 2008

4:49pm: I hope I lie, and tell everyone you were a good wife.
So spring break is wrapping up. So I figure I'll do a week in review

Sunday: Sat around all day doing nothing. Paul came home that night. We cooked and hung out.
Monday: Sat around and played guitar. Didnt do much of anything. Paul and I bought a bottle of Argentinian wine and hung out.
Tuesday: Sat around and played guitar. Went to Bar Louie with Paul and the girls next door. Introduced Paul to Steel Reserve and chilled.
Wednesday: Walked 15 blocks to deliver a box with Paul. Got lunch, and browsed stores. Then cleaned extensively. That night, went to Coco's and watched tv. Then IHOP with Coco, Sara, Jake, Ben, and two of Bens friends. Then watched Snakes on a Plane. Spent the night in Roselle.
Thursday: Got back to 2E8 around 2, made a cake. Paul and I bought some beer. Sat around drinking for a bit. Then we ate the whole cake. Well, most of it. Then took a nap, and bought a bottle of Syrah. It was shit. Met Kaz's friend Tom from London.
Friday: Didnt do much, sat in my apartment and played guitar. Ann was sick and it worried me. Other than that uneventful
Saturday: Sat around and played music all day, did some recording. People started coming home. In the evening, got depressed. Decided to play guitar and drink red wine out of the bottle. Jake and Sara came up at 2. we sat for a bit. then I went to bed.

I'm not..sad. I'm just not happy. I dont know why, because this break has been relatively fun. Except for one thing. I still care if you're okay, and its killing me that you dont seem like you are, it really is. but I need something back. It's your move.

Connor should be back soon.

Say hi.

(Rob me)

28th March 2008

6:15am: 'Cause I'm getting too carried away with the bullshit of leaving today.
I'm really more than just quite a bit bored of myself.
'Cause I'm getting too carried away with the bullshit of leaving today.
I didn't wanna be this damn unsure of myself.

I spent most of yeaterday afternoon half drunk because I just was too annoyed.
I dont want to say stop caring, but close.
But now I'm realizing its not me.
I've exhausted every option, and I'm not going to keep trying if this is what I'm going to get.

I'm starting to understand things a little bit better. I deserve something decent. And I have friends that give me that. And some that keep me on the ground more than others, and I cant thank them enough.

I'm going to sleep now.

(Rob me)

17th March 2008

7:14am: So I've found that I tend to post on monday mornings before I leave before my directing class.

Today will be no exception, it will just be shortened

I have made a decision, and I am 85-90% sure that I will be a Photography minor. Its just something Ive always wanted to do, and I'm gonna do it.

My Flickr Account

Take a look if you'd like. Its really only stuff off of my most recent roll, but some of them are okay. Pretty much all landscapes, but more stuff should come soon. Let me know what you think.

(Rob me)

16th March 2008

3:47am: Give my heart some meaning

That is all for today.
Remember, Andy is only to be taken in passing.
thank you

(I've been hit by 3 smooth criminals already Rob me)

13th March 2008

11:21am: And if never got my heart broken, I would sing “blah blah fucking nothing.
Seeing as many more of these have been posted lately I dont feel as strange about it.

I miss Boston. Don't get me wrong, I love it here, and I love all of my friends more than they know. But I just miss home
I miss 78 Avenue Louis Pasteur.
I miss 92 Laurie Avenue.
I want to drive for hours around the city, only to wind up at the same IHOP Ive been at time and time before.
I miss Yellow Submarine Improv shows (when they were good)
I miss the Cable Office, and having a steady paycheck.
I miss the Orange Line pulling into Forest Hills.
I miss Fenway, Boston Billiards, Axis, and Kenmore Square
I miss ska shows that meant something.
I miss all the people I didn't think I'd miss when I sent in that application.
I miss her.
I miss McGolf, George Wright, Franklin Park and Lost Brook.
I miss evenings walking up and down route one, and nerf battles in the movie theatre parking lot
4 months out of the year doesn't do it justice.
Because it means a lifetime

Maybe now scriptwriting can be easier.

(Rob me)

10th March 2008

7:15am: 2am chats are nice.

I feel somewhat relieved on one point.

But still not necessarily happy.

It's nice to know she cares.

Time to hit up Caribou, then go to the directing class I hate.

"I want to cry out but I don’t scream and I don’t shout
And I feel so proud to be alive
And I feel so proud to when the reckoning arrives'

(Rob me)

1st March 2008

4:28am: It's 430 AM, and I am still up. It is a mixture of my own personal stress and not wanting paul to die.

1) Paul.
       After Connor, Paul is the roommate whom I am closest with. I care about him a great deal. But sometimes I worry. He goes out and has fun, but there is just part of me that wishes he would just spend a night home. He came home about an hour ago, pretty drunk. He has since been puking his guts up, and I am not comfortable going to bed until I know he's asleep and okay. But I am starting to get more worried. I will just continue checking and bringing him water
2) Me
       I don't know what my fucking problem is. Yes I know its something that happens to everyone but it still sucks. I would just like a nice girl to put my arm around when I'm walking down the street. To cook dinner with/for and someone to kill a bottle of wine with me. But whatever. Theres no use bitching and moaning over something that is out of my control right? Right. But still, a guy can dream.
       I just haven't been happy lately. I don't know why. Its a mixture of loneliness, stress, and just a general distain for myself. It keeps me up at night. I haven't been genuinely happy for a long time, and it leads me to believe if I ever could. It seems no matter what situation, at the end of the day, I sit on my couch at 3am and brood.
       The confusion just amazes me. I shouldn't say who. Or what for that matter...but the confusion is just killing me.

Time to check.

Good day.

(Rob me)

29th February 2008

11:51am: I've been acting like a total douche lately.

For those of you affected...I am truly sorry.

Tell all your friends.

(I've been hit by 4 smooth criminals already Rob me)

28th February 2008

2:07am: So, if you havent heard of Jonathan Coulton, you should look him up. He is an amazing musician that generally plays to a niche nerd audience.
Also, many of you probably havent played Portal, but when you beat the game, there is a song by him played over the credits. It is a great song.

So here is an embed.

Listen to it. You should like it.

I should learn how to sleep.

(Rob me)

26th February 2008

So, katie's birthday is next week, and I'm sending her these two photos as a card, along wtih a letter.

I really miss her.

(I've been hit by 3 smooth criminals already Rob me)

24th February 2008

10:02am: i'll be a writer when i finally go deaf, but I can't write away this shortness of breath.
So I bought a flash and some other items last night for my 35mm. I think I'm gonna start taking my photography seriously.

Don't really know why to post this. I still dont have a working cell phone. So if you need to contact me, its better to just text me if you dont know know for certain I'm in my room. Otherwise my phone just dies. Uh...I'm going to new york in April. In the next 3 weeks or so, Drigg, Eric and Sarah are coming so thats exciting. I'm still waiting for Katie to visit..

I find that I fancy myself an artist(hence why I go to Columbia) but I'm too neurotic about it to show to most people, cause in my eyes its pure shit.

I should work on that.

(Rob me)

17th February 2008

11:11am: Kill me.
Alright. So as everyone knows based on my last post, I had the flu for about a week and a half. And that sucked. Because for one thing I was sick. Secondly I felt like everyone was having tons of fun without me. which also sucked.

So I got better, and I had about 3 or 4 days of fun. And then I went to Flogging Molly with Ben Kat and Coco. That was amazing. But I also blew out my vocal chords or something. That wasn't very much fun. So I figured I'd feel kinda shitty for a day or some and that was acceptable.

But now my throat still hurts, my lymph nodes hurt, and my jaw feels like its closing up. It is also swelling, so I kinda look like a squirrel. This isn't very good. Especially seeing as my folks called me this morning and are now freaking out cause they think I have meningitis.

I'm really sick of this. Now I know how Christine feels all the time. xD

Ok. I'm off to drink through a straw.

Say Hi.

(I've been hit by 8 smooth criminals already Rob me)

7th February 2008

1:42pm: So, I have the fucking flu. The second week of the semester. Ive only been able to go to 2 of my classes this week, and most of my professors have been understanding.

I hate being sick.

Other than that, 2nd semester is just alright with me.

(Rob me)

7th November 2007

8:12am: If I was young, I'd leave this town.
Alright so I caved...again.

And I'm back...again.

3 months of Chicago has gone well, met some really cool people, some more than most. Basically the eighth floor needs to move into my apartment, but thats a completely different story. Everything is going really well, I mean theres only 2 issues at this point, and I dont really have somewhere to yell about them right now, so I will post them here. If you dont want to hear me rant, feel free to Apple+W.

1) My father is an asshole. While this doesnt come out all the time, I have learned this fact and have struggled to acknowledge is assholery. He has made my life hell on many the occasion, and while we have had our battles, I have always had to be the bigger man and stand down. Going home last weekend showed me exactly why I am happy I'm gone. My father got hurt again, and is sitting around the house temporarily again. I feel for my dad, cause I realize that he would much rather be out working then sitting at home hurting. But I dont feel that this gives him just cause to be a prick to everyone else in the house. He takes a 'woe is me' attitude with pretty much everything, and I for one am sick of it. I slowly see how all of this is taking its toll on Mark, and its upsetting. I could say something to him, but then again it would probably just be becuase i'm out to get him.

2) Women are indecisive. And I'm not too keen to this fact. I met a girl...well, Ive met alot of them but thats besides the point. I think shes absolutely amazing. Very pretty and a great personality. After knowing her for a while I tried to convince her to engage me in a social situation over dinner. She agreed. Things went well (I think) Then I tried to engage another. She said sure, but told me that she was not sure where her heart was at. I didnt really either, so I agreed. Since then I have just been really confused about everything. Dont get me wrong, I am excruciatingly happy..I just want something more. Not much, I just want to be able to look at her and see that she maybe feels something for me...I dont know. Yes, I have been a hopeless dreamer on many the occasion, but part of me just wants her to tell me what the deal is. And while that doesnt happen, I sit on my hands wanting to tell her that she can trust me, that everything I am feeling and saying is in fact legitmate, that I am not just some asshole looking to get around.

I think this very well may be my longest entry ever. But yeah. I'm lame. TO THE MAX

Watch this video. Tell me what you think.

(Rob me)

8th October 2007

9:19am: Don't ask, Don't worry, Don't say a thing.
I just realized that this thing has just been sitting here dying for a while. So I thought I might try and breathe a little bit of life back into it if possible.

I am in Chicago. College so far has been fantastic and I'm enjoying it. I'm singing. and writing a lot. I'm actually about to move, because someone in chris' room moved out, so I'm going to take his spot.

Um...theres a girl. Things are unbelievably complicated to the point where it hurts my brain..but personally I think shes worth it, so I'll stick around a fight a bit. Well...not really fight, but I will stick around and sit.

I might start posting more often, but no promises.

(Rob me)

3rd September 2005

What late night talk show host are you?

Conan O' Brien

you have a very wacky sense of humor and a lot of funny comics

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(I've been hit by 2 smooth criminals already Rob me)

9th August 2005

9:41am: What would you think if I sang out of tune,
Would you stand up and walk out on me.
Lend me your ears and I’ll sing you a song,
And I’ll try not to sing out of key.
I get by with a little help from my friends,
I get high with a little help from my friends,
Going to try with a little help from my friends.
What do I do when my love is away.
(does it worry you to be alone)
How do I feel by the end of the day
(are you sad because you’re on your own)
No I get by with a little help from my friends,
Do you need anybody,
I need somebody to love.
Could it be anybody
I want somebody to love.
Would you believe in a love at first sight,
Yes I’m certain that it happens all the time.
What do you see when you turn out the light,
I can’t tell you, but I know it’s mine.
Oh I get by with a little help from my friends,
Do you need anybody,
I just need someone to love,
Could it be anybody,
I want somebody to love.
I get by with a little help from my friends,
Yes I get by with a little help from my friends,
With a little help from my friends.

(Rob me)

11th July 2005

4:50pm: I HAVE A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!

I just got an email from the guy at Boston City Tv and he said hes gonna give chris and I jobs! 10 bucks an hour!!!
only 2 days a week, but at 10 an hour, Im FINE with that

Current Mood: WHOOHOO

(I've been hit by 3 smooth criminals already Rob me)

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